I have been married only 11 years, but "swinging" is one thing we have tried to fix our marriage as well. It blew up in our faces badly every time. Before I was diagnosed two weeks ago our conversation led right back to him and how his curiosity is killing him. When I told him I couldn't do it again he left for two days. Now I have a mental health diagnosis he is all about me, yet I don't quite feel it's genuine.

In the face of everything else you are dealing with I think you are amazingly strong to still stand up and say no to your husband. That gives me hope that I (in the midst of my confusion and fear) can also stand strong in that. I don't really know what to say to help you, but know that your story helped me today. Thank you.