Thankyou. I do believe I'm scared that I will not be able to make it by myself. I often feel that i'm alone already though, it feels like my parents aren't even there, almost like I have to be the parent in the household and care for my mum. I often think that I can't possibly look after my mother as well as myself and that scares me.

But thankyou for the suppsrt and I really hope you're right.

Honestly, I hope I never have that dream again I can't get it out of my head and I feel like crying whenever it surfaces to the front of my mind.