I think most people around me would never guess that I have suffered with depression and anxiety since childhood. I was born this way. My sister is the only person who's seen and heard me at my worst breakdowns. *I smile, am personable and friendly at work and the few times I have socialized lately. *People seem to like my sense of humor and think I'm intelligent and attractive and successful. No one knows I am so alone most of the time except for when a boyfriend rarely comes into the picture. I have very few girlfriends to hang out with. I spend weekends by myself because my anxiety holds me back from going out and sometimes even doing the simplest *task. I overwhelm myself with everyday life. I am overly aware of my loneliness*Almost cvery day for the past few years feels like a battle.*I am thin but overeat impulsively and sometimes even plan a binge and struggle with weight. I can't keep myself on track with exercise which I know would help overall. *
I had to end a serious relationship recently and I'm angry about it. I'm still angry about my ex from years ago. I beat myself up over bad choices and I'm really just angry with myself.*
I tried and succeeded for a while with gratitude and positive thoughts but I can't get back there. Its getting harder as I get older. I've adjusted my meds but still can't cope. I feel like time is slipping away and I have too many regrets. I don't know what else to do. Does anyone really beat depression?