I don't think that. It's just that every therapist draws that conclusion because apparently it doesn't make sense that I'd be so bothered by sex if I hadn't been abused. Therapists just annoy me in general...I never found it healthy or helpful to go to one, but that's just me.

My knowledge of sex:

From my parents: You should probably use a condom and spermacide (if that's even a thing. Is that a thing?)

From school: I don't remember anything except names of STDs and how I found out what masturbation was and realized that I had been doing it all along and it felt really wrong and gross after that. (The school never actually said it was...it was just understanding what it was)

From the internet:
all the problems that arise about/from sex, like on this forum
Porn "taught" (I use the term VERY loosely) me different ways that sex could be done. But since looking at straight porn grosses me out, I haven't really learned much.
I learned what a penis looks like. Well, erect at least. I have no idea what it looks like otherwise and I don't particularly want to know anymore.
I've learned that way too many guys are way too pushy and manipulative, and that I should be very wary of men in real life. (Of course, real life has taught me that as well).
I'm sure I could think of some other stuff, but what I do know is only fantasy. And when I try to read about real sexual issues and stuff I find it to be really really gross. I really don't understand how it's worth it. It's just so GROSS.