I can only speak for myself.

I read the initial paragraphs (I didn't come close to reading it all).

I still choose to use the word healing because that's what it felt like that that's what I'd been striving for. How cool that I recognized it for what it was at some point. I thought it was this HUGE experience (with possibly a marching band or something) consisting of much loss and did not want that type of "supposed healing". When I realized MY healing, I realized also that it had been happening for over a year.

That's how little insight, introspection and awareness I had most of the time. I think mainly I didn't recognize it because I expected to feel massive loss of some kind and there was NONE...none. There was no loss and much gain. This was NOT a choice I'd made but a natural progression that kinda slipped up on me...in a good way.

To make the color purple, we must have red and blue. The red and blue does not disappear, but combines/blends. Red and blue both are still seen in the purple. Purple can't exist without the base colors, in fact. I show "purple" alot now.

All that said, I still have a few base colors here. I can't help but wonder now, and look forward to, the color they might show when "blended" IF that occurs and feels ok.

And, of course, if I show alot of purple interlaced with other bright colors for forevermore, that's fine by me too! It works! I like my life. I'm so appreciative...bottom line.

KD