You know what doesn't make sense? Anorexia and many EDs are about weight control and fear of weight gain. Yet we do many things that contradict that, for example bingeing and calorie restriction that puts our bodies in 'hamster mode'.

I'm trying to get better, yes. But my husband just got told that he will be unemployed after July this year. So I don't think I can continue with my therapy sessions. At €100 per session, it's beyond affordable. I'm going to have to try to do this without a therapist.