No, but she has offered. When I was trying to tell a difficult story she offered to hold my hand, but I said no. She also recently told me that she is always willing to give hugs and sometimes she has to fight the urge to give me one because I look so much like I need it and she wants to make it better. I said no again.

It's funny because the one thing I want most is to feel that kind of warmth from someone and I'm sure that she has a very warm, comforting hug, but it also just terrifies me. I'm not afraid of her personally, but of how I'll react, like, I think I'll just break down in uncontrollable tears if anyone tries to show me that kind of care.