Lately I've begun having 2 kinds of dreams. One kind involves having major arguments with my wife & my parents (my parents are both deceased) where I leave the house & have the unalterable feeling that because of what has happened I can never go back again.

The second group of dreams involve suicide. Last night I dreamed that I was in a bathroom, I think it was. I opened a drawer & there was a small revolver in it. I took it out & realized that I could kill myself right then & there. But then, I thought that I shouldn't do it & as I looked at the gun, I decided it was probably too small a caliber to do the job anyway & I'd probably just end up wounded but still alive. That's all I remember of it.

Of course, one thing I know is that I'm having these dreams because these types of things are on my mind. But I also wonder if the fact that I'm having these dreams suggests anything with regard to what's going on in my sub conscious.