Thanks for all of your feed back. I am now in day program and am seeing a nutritionist and an individual therapist, so I am hoping to make some good connections there. I have some negative experiences with doctors in the past but am trying to start fresh...but that is very difficult for me. I used to be able to exercise a lot and was in very good shape, so I am trying to ease back into it with 30 mins of light cardio and also working with my nutritionist to make sure I'm eating healthy and not dieting...there is a big difference.

I don't think I can accept my body the way it is...Confusedinnomicon: How did you get yourself to do the body-loving exercises? I can't stand to look at myself in a mirror, it just makes me want cry and kill myself. How were you able start? I admire you for getting to where you are. I don't think I'm strong enough to do that, I've tried looking in the mirror and smiling and being happy with myself but it is so fake and then I just hate myself more.