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Originally Posted by esmeorange
good morning
Hi, I am twenty six years old, and virtually since the death of my father I have being dealing with bad coping mechanism to deal with my life, with anxiety, loneness, and sadness. Getting back to the same bad habits when I am by myself, always brings me to the feeling that I am back to zero ground, that I have failed, besides all of this, I have the feeling of lack of empowerment of my own life, to not have control over it.
I have had a hard time studying, concentrating and being social during my school years, as well as dealing with many forms of anxiety, It has passed many years, and now I am seeing lots of the after effects of years of behaving in a self-destructive manners, I feel like my life it is being wasted, I haven’t done much and learn as much as I could, due to not being to have a peace of mind, I feel like I am loosing opportunities, that I am not growing as man and as person. I haven’t been able to break away for a strong and independent life, and to find a life where I can have new habits and to feel that I can count on me and that other’s can count on me back.
I do have a profession that I feel it is aligned with what I want to do in life, but it still lacks me skill, commitment to it and It is not what I am working with it right now
This is more a cry of help, from the part of me that knows that it is urgent to change, and wants more than anything to find life full of meaning again.
I hope that I can make things work once and for all.
Thanks already for just being able to you about this and to have this support.
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If you have a profession that is aligned with what you want to do in life, you are already better off than most people on this board. I wonder how you have been able to acquire the profession while having "deficient attention"? Even if you had difficulties studying as you report, you did ACHIEVE what you achieved, so while you might want to have MORE focus than you already have, you should first acknowledge that you already have sufficient focus.
I also have been unable to see from your post how masturbation relates in any way to your anxiety, loneliness, sadness, feelings of failure and lack of empowerment. This list you provided (sad, lonely...) is a garden variety list of symptoms of anxiety and depression. Anxiety and depression are treatable: you can use therapy, medications, cardio exercise, sunlight for some people, making sure you get enough iron and vitamin D and in general ruling out physical causes of depression, getting enough sleep, etc. Have you done all of those things and what results have your trials yielded?