I went to see my new therapist for the second time. I am starting to live with the fact that I will never see my old therapist again. Now, instead of missing her, I am angry that she could desert her clients so quickly without any time for processing with her.

Back to the new therapist, she had received the notes from my former therapist. We went over them, and it was tough to talk about some of the information, especially about my family and childhood abuse. There was just a brief discussion of topics as she gathered more information, though.

What I like is that she was very sensitive to the fact that we are in the beginnings of developing a relationship, and she told me that we would focus more on my current state and bipolar issues until I am more comfortable with her. I also like that is she is gathering a lot of information about my kids and husband. She is finding out about the complete picture. My old t did this too, but she had the advantage of having tested a couple of them.

As for my questions I had shared in an earlier post, I didn't ask the personal ones, but I did make sure that I have contact information that works for me. I cannot handle phone calls! I am comfortable now that she does not mind if I email when needed. She gave me her email address. I told her that I am not a constant emailer, I just occasionally need to share over email what I cannot during a session, so that we can talk about it the next time. I let her know that I understand that the internet is not considered a private communication tool.

I think this may work out. I wish I didn't have to be the person that the notes say I am, but at least I don't have to start at the beginning now. I guess I'll know that we have developed a relationship when I can actually go and revisit the tough stuff in my childhood.

Okay, I am feeling slight optimism here. Fingers crossed!

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