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manicminer · Mar 20, 2013, 08:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Mr. Radio

This past Christmas I experienced my first manic episode, at first they told me it was psychosis and I would take 6 months to a year to recover. I feel like I've come out of the psychosis, but I still don't feel back to normal. I talk a lot less then I use to and my personality seems to be missing. I have lost my self-esteem and confidence and don't know when that is suppose to come back. I was told I have bipolar type 1 and don't really know too much about the illness other then I qualify for it because I've had only one manic episode with no depression. I'm looking to see if anyone else has ever felt like they've lost their self and how they gained it back. I was a radio host up at my school before this all happened where conversation came easy to me, now I can't bring my personality out for the life of me. I am new to posting of forums too, I am hoping someone has experienced the same thing and was able to come out of it feeling full again.

I was on Risperdal for the first 2 months and they changed me to Saphris this last month. Taking 20mg of Saphris and things haven't changed.

Thanks

Mr. Radio

Mr. Radio

Having gone through severe mania with psychosis leading up to my dx, I can closely relate.

To the best of my knowledge and by your description, what you are experiencing now is a kind of bipolar depression. This is your brain's way of recovering from the massive strain put on it by the mania and psychosis. In time with rest and therapy, you should hopefully return to "normal" or something like it.

Its been 4 years since my dx and hospitalization. I've finally made it back to a good place in the past 4 months. My recovery may have been quicker if I had not had a major relapse of alcoholism.

Long story short, it may take a while, but with hard work and determination, it is fully possible to find yourself and become the "old you" again.

Best wishes and good luck