Hi Ash,
What ever is happening can be very confusing and mixed up. When my symptoms became more and more evident I denied it for ages. I could sense things were different but it wasnt mine. Trust in your carers.
Writing down what is going on may help you and help others to understand what is real for you. Take it one day at a time. This is your journey. Take time out to breathe....... even on the hardest of days.