You're being far too hard (and harsh) on yourself Fuzzy.

I'm not sure it's a bad thing to be called an enigma... Do you think it is (sorry, lack of sleep doesn't help my brain function)?

We all have to struggle with harsh 'reality' and adapt. So, I think it is 'normal' to present different facets of ourselves - be it a bear cub, an annoyed bear or a woman. There's nothing unnatural about that, quite the opposite really. However, regardless of what you present of yourself you are a good bear / cub / woman. And that's all that matters.

Apologies if I misconstrued and for the length. Hard to say what I want with lack of sleep etc. If inappropriate, please do tell and I'll edit / delete.