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Originally Posted by Ash0198
Hey guys,
My psychologist just suggested to me early this week that she thinks I might have DID....but I'm not too sure. The only thing I can think of as a symptom are the spirit beings in my head that talk to me all the time. Could these be alters instead? She says she's seen them come out. But I dunno my psychiatrist and psychologist are still not sure if its psychosis or dissacosiation. I don't have memory loss although my short term memory loss is appalling but I thinks it's the meds not me....and I don't black out or anything like that.
But I do have periods where I really really do not feel myself like I find it hard to recognise my own self in the mirror which scares me so much. Nothing feels real...only the being in my head feel real to me.
So my question is how did u guys first figure out there was something wrong? Or if others picked up on ur mood switches?? I just don't know....it's all confusing the crap out of me. Also....do things get worse over time???
Thanks a lot for reading
Ash
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When I was young I would see a change in the face of the person I was talking to. So if they knew me one way and they thought I was behaving out of character they would look surprised or confused. These reactions would cause me to switch to who ever they were familiar with. When I started therapy I had the same issue with my therapist. If I saw, what I believed to be surprised or confused look on her face, I would switch. My t was patient and would work with who ever was at session. Now anyone is allowed to go to session and talk if they want and I don't feel the need to switch to protect us. We have rules about behavior during therapy that everyone seems to have agreed to. So no one is allowed to be violent at session. They can be angry and express that anger in words. But not in actions. Other wise the ones who show up at session present as they are. I am still learning about my system. It's difficult but it feels right.