I just got back. I'm a mixture of feelings right now.

I've been diagnosed as DID and DDNOS by many doctors but there have been occassional psychiatrists that said they believed they were seizures, I never believed it, I figured if they were seizures I would have known.

So the bad news is that the neuro said he really believes they were seizures (and not psuedoseizures like my t thought) and that he thinks I may have epilepsy. So he's ordered an EEG for me for next Thursday. Even if it shows nothing he said he still wont rule out epilepsy just yet.

There are other tests if the EEG doesn't show that he wants to do but we're taking it one step at a time. I'm happy to finally get a EEG, I haven't been able to get one because I didn't have insurance and it would have been a couple thousand. But with my insurance it's only going to be $35 they said. Phew to that!

The good news (besides finally being able to get the EEG)... At the hospital they told me my license would be suspended for 3 years following my last seizure. So I wasn't going to be able to get my license back until May 2015! But the neuro said that's false, it's only one year!!! May will mark one year! I haven't had my license in two years already, it sucked thinking about another 2 years! But he did say he wouldn't feel comfortable with me driving even at the year mark until we figure out what is causing the seizures and get me on medication if I need it.

So even if I have to wait another 6 months, it sure as heck beats waiting 2 years! But I'm not comfortable with driving either. Not just yet at least. Like him, not until I find out what has been causing the seizures.

25 years old and may be diagnosed with epilepsy! That's so not right! It's just not fair. But what in life is fair?

I may be driving soon though, I'll try to focus on the positive!