Thank goodness you're with us, Speed. No, the world isn't off its axis; you've just
had a psychiatrist who is longer in touch with his patients.

Please go someplace and see a psychiatrist who knows your grief and can medicate you properly.

Your husband sounds as if he was somewhat better last night. Maybe your going on to the emergency room had something to do with his waking up.

Try very hard to get with a psychiatrist in another area, even if you must drive a good distance to see him. The drive alone will give you time to have calm thoughts and to begin to plan your life with better environmental circumstances.

You are stronger, you know. You got to the hospital on your own, found out the
real character of the psychiatrist you have, and know now that a big part of your
recovery is going to be with people who will be very glad to help with your recovery.

Please continue to act in your own behalf. It's very strengthening.

I was really worried about you yesterday and thought earlier today I'd try to see if
all is okay.

It does sound better, but you do need to continue psychiatric treatment for a while yet.

Keep us posted, PLEASE. We worry when we don't hear from you, you know.