feeling rough around the edges...I had a massage today it made me feel slightly better to talk some things out with my massage therapist. But its not enough I need more people in my corner who know me not just some people who show up on the scene expecting that community resources is going to solve my problems internally. I do not feel well so push me to socialize with people I don't want to socialize with oh that makes me feel really better not. Push me to go for more walks push me to smile when I am not feeling good sorry I am not a dancing monkey I don't do that.

I just feel like hardly one I trust is in my corner...and I am fighting a loosing battle.