I know there are plenty of successful people in the world, and smart people, but it only bothers me that SHE is smart and successful. I look her up on google and read about how she is doing and I feel like ****.

A lot of this has to do because I am the biggest loser i know. I am in my 30s and i live with my parents and I don't even have my own car or any friends. Part of this is due to social phobia, and then there are other anxieties which have affected me but I don't think I would be as good as her even without them.

I would like to stop thinking about her altogether.