Some of you will no that I've had a bad day yesterday.


I self harmed badly Tuesday night over a misread of a text.
I've been trying really hard to find my happy place again but nothing is working.
I thought I got there today but it was short lived.
I think I'm gettin really sick again. All I can think about is how worthless I am.
How everyone loves me but never good enough to be with.
I just hate myself so much.
I can't even look at myself when getting dressed at the moment.
I am the people I hate the most. The people who indulged themselfs in self pitty.
All I can think about is punishing myself for being so disgusting. Worthless. And ugly.
I think I must have been so evil a bad person to end up this way.

But I don't know what I've done wrong. If I knew I could try to fix it make it better. I would.
I don't want to be hated.

Oh god I know I'm really getting sick again. :'(