Hi Nina ~ It sounds to me like you're becoming quite depressed! Do you suffer from depression? Is that one of your diagnoses? Are you on medication for depression?
If you ARE on an antidepressant, I think you need a higher dosage or else a different antidepressant altogether. Sometimes we become used to the medication that we're on, and it needs to be changed. This happens alot. Just talk to your doc about it. OR -- perhaps it's just a matter of raising the dosage. That's easy enough. Either way, just speak with your doc and he'll decide which you need.
If you're not on anything, your doc will decide what kind of antidepressant you need. You just need to keep in mind that it takes awhile for them to work. Some of them take as long as 6 weeks to work! Most of them now take from a few days to 2 weeks to work. Make sure you tell your doc you want something that doesn't take long to work! Some of these doctors rely on the "older" type meds and those take forever to work!
Please let us know what happens, ok? I wish you the best my friend. God bless and take good care of yourself. Hugs, Lee