There was this guy who I was in love with two years ago. But I absolutely hated being around him because no matter how happy I was for that time I was with him, I was always my most depressed when we were apart. I mean prior to meeting him I hadn't cut in almost a year. Then if I was away from him for a week, I would start cutting and just in general be antisocial. My friends noticed and suggested that we needed to spend some time apart but I just couldn't do it. I could have sworn we were in love and would get married someday. We were only freshmen in high school! Long story short, here it is two years later and my heart still skips a beat when I see him and immediately after I feel depressed again. I just want to know if anyone else has ever gone through this and will it ever get better or do I just have to move far, far away after graduation?