((Melisssa)),

When people are exposed to something like this they often don't quite know how to react. When your mother "remained calm" and "seemed unaffected", it may not be that she didn't care. She may have kept herself composed because she may not have wanted you to get upset of think it is worse than you already do.

Ofcourse, I don't know your mother, but I can picture some mothers reacting low key simply to avoid creating an "upset". Something like this can take someone time to process and think about how to react. Remember, you experienced this first hand and are struggling with it, other people are not always going to know how it feels and the very real emotional confusion. When you post here you are going to get stronger support, because alot of the members in this forum understand, can identify with how you feel. Other people who don't know how an experience like this feels first can might not give you the response you need. It doesn't mean you should not talk about it and open up, you have to be patient though and understand people are not going to quite know how to react right away.

(((Caring Hugs)))