I'm so glad to have this resource. I have felt like a victim, to be honest. But I'm seeing it differently as I pull out. I got caught up in something--a game, perhaps--and I knew it wasn't healthy, but I was getting something out of it. Still trying to pinpoint that. I'm not generally a fan of drama, but I guess I liked the attention and the guarantee of constant interaction. It distracted me from schoolwork (among other things), and I made my first "B" as a grad student. Just didn't do the work. It's been a tough lesson. Emotionally traumatizing, but hopefully I'll come out on the other side smarter and healthier.