So I've only been to 3 sessions ever, but every time I go, I tell T that I dont want to be there and I'd prefer to meet less since I wasn't comfortable with the whole thing. Well now all of a sudden T has pushed back my next appointment week by week. I know the first time she said it was for personal reasons, which is fine, but it has now been pushed back 2 more times making it well over a month and a half between my last appointment and the next. I worry because if I dont start going, insurance wont pay for my hospital bills. I'm way too antisocial to ask her whats shes doing (its not my business anyways). Do you think she is actually listening to me when I tell her I'd rather not meet anymore? She knows I am being forced to meet every week. Or at least that I am supposed to.

Another thing is does anyone have any tips that would make this whole process easier? I feel bad being stubborn like a child. Its probably just incredibly irritating for T to work with me. I do have things I could talk about, but it would probably make me feel bad enough to go home and start SI again. So I'm kinda stuck and getting worried... Help/advice would be much appreciated!