So yesterday, my therapist (who is a wonderful, quirky sort of guy) told me that in order to forgive those who have hurt me, I need to know exactly what I'm forgiving. He said that since I tend to bury a lot of stuff from the past, it will be important to bring it back up, re-experience the traumas in a safe environment (ie, his office), re-feel the emotions as honestly as possible and from there, accept what has happened to me and work on forgiveness and acceptance.

I know that this is something I really need to do, but the thing is, I'm not sure how to get started. Every time I sit in his office, I think about how I'd love to just cry it all out but I've become so numb and detached over the past few years that it seems impossible. I am so emotionless in therapy, but when I'm alone, especially at night, those memories haunt me enough to cry.

I don't want to go through the process alone because I have a history of SI. I need to be able to do this with the guidance and support of my therapist, but I want to make sure I'm not faking anything. Does that make sense? So basically, how do I get these emotions to surface while in my therapy session?

Thanks for reading my long-winded post and for any advice you have!