(((Rainthatfalls)))
that relationship is toxic to you. He is tryint to make you responsible for his moods and how he feels. If you have to walk on eggshells around him out of fear of what he might do or say, can you see that's not a healthy relationship? Joking about what you would feel if you did something that would make him kill himself that's totally unfair on you. Hes manipulating you. Is he concerned about the impact of the things that he says affect you? or is this all one sided you being totally concerned for him and worried what he will do or say or behave? sounds like a good situation to leave. You have your health to think of too, and hes not considering that hes too focused on his own and manipulating you. Please try putting you first instead as you matter too.