I feel frustrated today, and tired and I had alot of anxiety and my stomach has been hurting from all the anxiety tbh.

I am still thinking about how I am going to address my attorney with this new concern that hit me like a led ballon on Monday. I am glad I didn't find this information out in front of him, that would have NOT gone well at all. I definitely needed some time and thankfully comfort from my PC friends to calm down. Actually I am glad that my husband was the one that found out the way he did and not me, because honestly I did have a rage and I haven't had that happen in a long time.

When I have something upset me like that my stomach really hurts, my chest hurts and I feel like I have been badly beaten up all over my body. I also get the chills really bad and I worry about experiencing a flashback. I didn't have a big flashback but alot of mini ones like those old movie cards flipping fast pictures. And I have had boughts where I just cry too. Then I feel bad because I struggle like that and wish I was more like my old self where I didn't struggle like this.

Then I feel sorry, I feel sorry and sad for everyone that struggles like this because it can be so challenging and "lonely".