I am not sure if anyone will remember my forum name from before, because I don't post very much, but if you do, you will also remember how horrible I spoke of my relationship.

And my boyfriend of 6 years finally broke up with me today, and told me he just cheated on me again last week, and he has been. The only reason he even told me, is so he could date this other person.

I am very confused.
I keep feeling freaking horrible, and then suddenly very numb. I keep switching between the two.

I don't really have a lot of experience with break-ups, because this is my second serious relationship, and I've dated him for basically my entire adult life (since I was 18).

I am so alone and I feel like I have no personality without him.

The only feelings left once the numbness subsides are fear, anger, sadness, betrayal and shock.

Thanks for any help you can provide. I feel so alone right now.

Also, he told me he wanted to stay friends with me and I could call him if I needed someone to talk to, but I have tried tonight, and he hasn't answered or returned my attempts once.