Hi ResBP,
I always am impressed by your posts because you are so insightful considering that you are so young.(a good thing!) I know you have experienced a lot with your family, so I understand that you possess more wisdom than many.
Currently, you are not making wise choices. There are only a few of us on this site who can function without meds, although at times we all believe that we are able to do this. Please step back and think about what is best for your mental health. Your pdoc will help you adjust your meds if you are not comfortable now. Believe me, I am probably the age of your mom or older, and I still try the same thing, but my pdoc helps me to adjust if I am not comfortable with my current medication combinations.
Try to find what's best, and good luck!
Bluemountains