Dark: Thank you so much! IT is really hard. I have always struggled with managing my stress...

Christina: I... Was feeling horrible yesterday, but felt better later on. I was crying all morning, but today I was feeling a lot better. Until my mom took me out to dinner to discuss me acting more like an adult and what she expects of me. So.... It kind of made my feelings of being hopeless and like a failure sink in more. However, she ended up taking me to get my ear pierced like I wanted (since I wanted someone to go with me) so I feel better now. It's really weird, that something that small can actually make you really, really happy.

However, I'm starting to get a little surprised with myself. I've recently adapted an "I don't really care" attitude. Not in... A negative way, but in a more positive way. I'm stepping outside of my box more and trying new things.

Like last night. I had long hair and I randomly decided out of nowhere, that I was tired of dealing with the knots, so today, I went out and cut it at a salon (and found out that it was long enough to donate, so I'm feeling really glad about that), without telling my parents. I am really happy with the decision, it is really pretty. I look my age finally, if not older.

But I'm thinking this new attitude might be good for me. I usually over think things waaaaaaaay too much and now I'm starting to relax a little. I don't know why... I'm just... Not worrying as much, I almost feel numb... So maybe that's not a good thing. I'm not sure... But I'm not depressed anymore. I'm feeling better.

Thanks for your concern!