I'm wondering why I have this desperate need to socialize. Is it really that primal? I'm starting to think this site is unhealthy for me, but I can't seem to turn away.

If I had real life friends (those are a joke, no one is actually on your side) I wouldn't be on here. I feel this need to conversate, to be liked, but I can't find it anywhere. I feel some friendship here, but mostly I find a general concensus of kindness.

While I appreciate this all accepting community, and a place with people who think like me, I find this site to be difficult to absorb at times. So much is posted so often, so many are missed. Or worse yet, most are passed up. I can't handle pouring my heart out, in condensed version for readability, only to have it viewed 300 times with 6 responses, when 3 of the responses are myself.

Does anyone actually care? Would it feel better if I couldn't see how many were simply looky-loos at my life's dilemmas? Do I fit in anywhere? Is it the game boards that flood the rest of conversation out? I just feel so frazzled right now. It suck feeling like no one cares, not even fake people on the internet.

Damn, I'm lame.