Hi Granite, I'm so sorry that you're having such a rough time. You work so hard and you deserve to be respected and really heard. You're so artistic with the cards you make that you share with us, they're so cool, and the zentangle thing. I think you'd really do well with an arts therapy approach, like the sand play that I did with my t (and still do on my own at home, I made my own sand tray) and there are other art type therapies too. You can let your hands talk for you in the sand or whatever medium. I went into a session not wanting to talk more than once and did a really powerful sand tray each time - when I was done they spoke so much to both myself and t. It's amazing. I wish all the best for you. You deserve to be heard and be respected! Hugs to you.