Hey Shezbut ~ I do understand holding these emotions in. You're basically holding resentments, isn't that true? Aren't you pretty much angry at your parents and your grandparents for not protecting you?

Resentments are poisonous. "Resentment is the poison I take to kill you." While you say that they're all these emotions, it all boils down to resentments. That's exactly what I did for many years. It took therapy to get me to realize it too.

The thing is, we need to forgive those who hurt us -- not for THEIR sake but for OURS. Resentment is like a cancer -- it eats us inside out. If we don't get rid of it by forgiveness, we'll stay sick and get sicker the longer we carry the resentments. I found that out. So for my own sake, I had to forgive those who had hurt me so badly. And I HAVE truly forgiven them.

Think about it Shezbut. If I'm mis-understanding, let me know. But when we have all those emotions repressed, they ARE resentments. God bless my friend. Hugs, Lee