(((BlueCasper)))
People are hard to deal with, and that is whether or not if you have a dx or not. And they can be extremely hard to deal with when they don't want to find understanding with someone. And with all that, then to add the pain that one has gone through with relationships can make it even more difficult.
I can say in some ways I relate but not entirely. I don't go out, I don't have friends that I go see and do things with. I stay at home on my off time. I do have my s/o though and my cat. My S/O when we first got together, I told myself- if this does not work out, then it is obvious "who the problem is" and that would be me-- and does the world really need a person like that?
I was fortunate enough to find someone that does try to understand me, or if not understand me, understand that they don't understand me all the time... Always wish that everyone has someone (even if just a friend) they can talk to... and I am sorry that it sounds like you just have not found your match.
I did have to take a leap with getting together with my s/o though, and so did he. Real fears, and struggles with both of us with relationships.
As far as work, I work nights- for several reasons, but one reason is not to deal with the politics that day shift has to deal with at my place of work. I get to see a few people, and those few people I have over time tried to at times joke and talk with. It did not happen over night
... over years it happened.
I do go through periods where no one stops by my desk to just talk, either because of -- I don't know... Some times I do know that it is because others have other projects or personal things going on that they don't have the time besides to say a hi to me.
I have trouble with new people though, but been trying to get better with myself of not being so troubled by them.... it is tasking.
I am sorry if this is not much help.....
I think it is a good thing that you have came on PC and wrote this though:
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Anyways, I guess in around about way I was kind of curious if there was by any chance anyone out there like me? I mean, I guess there is. Can't have millions of people on the face of the earth without at least a few individuals experiencing or going through the same thing in life. Would be nice to just actually connect, or talk to someone that can relate to what I'm going through
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Which that there is taking a step to get out of your little bubble you have... even if it is the internet.
((Many good thoughts for you and hope it is ok that i wrote here))
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