shezbut

maybe you are stuffing the emotions and feeling shame because you were taught that some emotions where forbidden to have.... and so letting yourself have those emotions and be OK with them could be a step in the right direction... you think? or am I way off here?

I wasn't allowed to cry and we were all disciplined if we showed we were sick, learned to trudge along and not show that I was sick, siblings too. Am working on, presently, with overcoming the feelings of shame when I am physically ill. It's very difficult when one has been "programmed" a certain way since infancy -- to re-write the way the mind needs to think. I still isolate(but not as much as I used to) and feel bad about self when ill-- though I am aware of those reaction now-- which makes it possible to take a step closer to that -- "inner peace", as I like to call it (healing).

anyway-- don't know if that life example made sense

I think you are on a good track in discovering this I wish you more healing- ever increasing inner peace.

fins