Thank you everyone. I got home yesterday. I want to well as you can imagine.

This morning I could barely stand for longer then 5 minutes.

But I've got right back into things. It's kind of helped. I've not had time to think to much of the guilt I feel. And how stupidly dangerous I was.

I'm to scared to even think about drink, let alone pour it down my throat.

I'm even to scared to take my vitamins!

I really scared myself. I never thought I could go that far. And I don't ever want to again. And I won't.
All meds have now been removed and I will no longer drink unsupervised.

I know that sounds extreme, but I have my children to live for. And they need me. How could I have been so ****ing selfish. I could of ruined everything.