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Originally Posted by genetic
Keep your faith, Speed. It's a stabilizing force for us all if we let it be so.
Try doing some different things from your usual routine. Visit some places, get that
new psychiatric physician, have lunch out. Change the appearance of your interior
in the home. Have it painted a new and fresh color or change the carpet, redo
the curtains, or whatever it takes to make the atmosphere in the home different
for you.
Planning those things can help involve you in the activity that is important for recovery. Everything you do is helpful for your husband and your comfort. Know
that you will be successful as time continues to place you in new situations and
new efforts.
It really does get better, Speed, and much faster than you think if you'll just get
in to see a new psychiatrist, please, and be medicated properly. You do understand that it's a chemistry problem with the brain now. I feel certain you do.
Prayers going up tonight for your continued strengthening.
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Hi Genetic,
I appreciate the ideas. It is almost impossible for me to leave the house without major panic attacks. My house, ukkkk, I have not cleaned in over two months. There are many projects that Jason and his dad started together. I constantly look up at the hole in the living room ceiling when they accidentally broke through when they were redoing the upstairs bathroom. The steps going upstairs are in the midst of being redone. The old carpet is off, most of the staples are gone. The banister is down. We do have a beautiful runner, we have had it for almost a year.
I tried to go out with my husband last night. We were setting up appointments to get memorial Tattos for Jason. Then we went to dinner. I got through the appetizer and had to go to the car. All the people laughing and having a good time was too much. Of course my husband was extremely mad, he said I ruined the night.
He went and got his tattoo, I could not go.
I don't have the energy to find a new PDOC, and like I said it is very hard for me to leave the house.
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JASON 8/17/1985 to 1/03/2013
I miss you sweetheart