Just got in a fight with my mother. Told her about how ugly and worthless I feel. She said she was sorry I felt that way but there wasn't anything she could do about it, and said I was "complaining" and if I didn't do anything about it nothing would change. That really got to me, a lot, her calling me talking to her about how I feel "complaining." I told her she's the only one I have to "complain" to and she doesn't even let me talk to her hardly without saying stuff like that, and that I always keep stuff in because she reacts that way when I talk about how I feel. Then she said something like "If I'm the cause of your troubles you can just go off to college and never see me again." Now I want to hurt myself. For overreacting. For her not understanding. For me being selfish and probably misunderstanding her. For getting upset. For feeling like I'm a bother to everyone. I nearly threw myself in front of a car. I wanted to in the moment. So badly.