I suffered this kind of loss also, but I didn't have the courage to do what you are doing. It is traumatizing massively, and for you to have had a therapist that was so unethical, I know adds to your pain. I am so sorry you had to go through this.

I had to shift this pattern in my life, and it has been hell. It does get better with time, but I am 7 months off of the termination and I still get enraged/upset at the way I was terminated. I did find a therapist who is a really good fit for me; there is hope.

I hope when you are ready, that you are able to find a therapist who has boundaries and can give you therapy for your past therapy. It will get better, it just takes time.

I get this totally. My therapist has helped me with this, and I am starting to see a change. I know how painful it is not to believe in yourself.

Sending safe hugs your way.