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Originally Posted by Speed3
I find myself playing with my meds again today. A little extra this, a little extra that, adding 100mg Benadryl. I wait a little bit and see how that feels and maybe add some more.
My PDOC doesn't give a crap. I am not sure if I will be accepted to the Psyc unit, I have always used and is covered
100% by insurance. My husband doesn't want to be bothered. I am supposed to be where he is in feeling better. If I told him what I am doing he will blow up.
I put my Panic aside the other day and went to the ER associated with my Psyc unit. I told them the truth. Because my PDOC didn't call them back they let me go.
I am not sure that I want to die. I do want to feel numb. I do want someone to see how bad I am struggling, and how close to the edge I might go.
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I thought I was the only one to add Benadryl. I want to feel numb too but not as often as I used to want.
What abt group therapy or a support group. You can share your experiences with them (or on here) and talk to others going through the same thing. They can see your pain cause we've all gone through it and work together.
Your husband isn't an option to talk to I take it?