Im so sorry Tot no wonder you are feeling so bad about yourself when your own mother wont even achknowledge or validate you, im sorry she doesnt appreciate all you do for her, it seems like she would be so lost without you . she seems to take you for granted and assume you will always be there for her and i know she is your mother but maybe you should try doin less for her just so she sees how much you actualy help her, she should respect you tot and she doesnt seem to, my mam used to say that we have to show people how to treat us maybe if you whhere less helpful she might appreciate you more. I know its not the same as a physical friendship but you are cared about so much on here and have helped myself and others so much you are not worthless you are such an important part of this little community and once you get this course hopefuly you can leave that toxic environment and start feeling a little better about yourself. you know im always here tot