Welcome to PC. I recently had a bad relapse & I didn't want to tell my meds provider about it cuz I felt so ashamed. I had been doing well for a long time so instead of "telling" her, I wrote her a letter & told her in detail what happened so she would know by my next appt. It was so much easier to talk about a difficut subject when she already knew. I didn't have to go explain it again. You might feel more comfortable doing that.--Suzy