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Because my abuse as a child was so profound - spiritually, emotionally, and physically - I have been waiting all my life to feel good.
Abuse filled my childhood with so much unhappiness and so little respect, that I feel as though I have been waiting forever to feel differently. I want to feel better now; I want all that pain, anger, and fear to go away now!
This is when I need to be most gentle with myself. As I begin to recognize my uniqueness in the universe, I become more willing to accept the pace of my own unique process. My process is like no one else's. My recovery is like no one else's. My pace is my pace. As I begin to respect this pace, I learn to trust that I won't hurry myself to do something before I am ready.
Today I am learning to be gentle and patient with myself. As I am able to accept that my Higher Power knows what is best for me, I learn to let go and relax with my process.
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