I wish I could return to December 26, 2011. I would prevent my daughter from being raped. That would stop all of the subsequent events that have happened since then that caused my BPD to flourish to the point that I could no longer cope and had to come out of denial. Yes, I was in denial and something probably would have happened eventually to cause me to lose it, but I wouild have at least had more time thinking I had no real problems and that I could manage. By the way, my daughter is doing fine and came out of it like a champ. Her mother, due to her impulsive actions, did not and is still struggling to this day.