Thank you for the replies...I was feeling /really/ crazy

I'm dx'd schizoaffective, for those who don't know.

Sarah, I am watched 24/7, have been for Years.

special_k, I go through my pcp for meds (long story), he's told me that if what I'm on (from a former hospital stay) isn't working, he won't be able to do much, as he's a gp. I also have a Really hard time taking my ADs and anti-psychotics. I don't think the ones in my head like them, so get me to not taking them. Even though I know I shouldn't do that, I do...I'm not sure I'm always in control? I don't know how to explain what I mean, if that doesn't explain it.