Thank you so much for your replies. It took me a while to read them but honestly I am sick of being put down, I am trying to live my own life happily, but it honestly hard when the whole world thinks it's normal and the "others" who acknowledge their issues are crazy and to be avoided. It's just hard for me to find people who really understand the state of my mind. I'm actually an extremely smart person, with quirks that I need to work out and learn to control better. Unfortunetly even now my mother has continued to pass judgement and your all very correct it is due to her own problems. I just don't understand how a person can be so cruel to their own child. I plan on my children being a part of me, not the walking avoidance.

Thanks again for all your support.