Actually I changed my mind - am posting what could have been another post in here as a reply. Not as spammy and people don't have to read it.

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I quit.

I quit trying to be happy.
I quit trying to fix my life and my problems.
I quit trying to be my own person.
I quit trying to stop the bad thoughts.
I quit trying to ask for help.

I am not happy.
I can't fix my life.
I am incapable of controlling my own life.
I don't know how to overcome the thoughts.
I don't deserve help.

But I know ...

I could be less happy.
I could have more problems to fix.
If I tried, I'd control my life and not others.
If I tried, I could deal with the bad thoughts.
I know everyone deserves help even if I don't feel worthy.

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I had another line but deleted it cause it seems really out-there, even for me. (hehe) I'm odd.

Thanks to everyone who puts up with me and reads my nonsense.