I was 7 when my oldest brother began brutally r*ping and s*dimizing me...It went on until I was 15. I didn't tell anyone till I was 17. I still feel like it is happening to this day. When will things get better? Why? What did I do wrong? Was I not a good enough sister? I just don't understand? I just wish that when I close my eyes and open them that everything never had happen, that it was all just a bad dream. But it doesn't work out that way.