Hi Gracez, I'm so sorry that you are feeling so bad. You are such a kind person I can tell!Do you find writing down your problems and posting them, does it help, I think it helped me. At the end of the day wheather you see a therapist or not they can only give you tools to overcome how you are feeling. I'm not saying therapists are no good they can be of great benefit. For example i have been having really bad thoughts for the last few months and my pdoc said when you are feeling really bad so bad you want to selfharm, he said to listen to music or go and look at your children as they are sleeping and that may take you away from the thoughts. Gracez, I hope, that you can relate to this in some way. Talk soon. Ill keep my eye out for you.